well well.. lets ask ourselves.. is sorry one of the most difficult word to say?
somehow i agree when one did something wrong n its kind of hard to admit. but those are the old days. now, its juz a word to alot of people. sorry does not have the same effect as it used to. maybe is cause most people are more better and better in acting.
so now sorry got 2 types. from the MOUTH and from the HEART.
i was heartbroken by someone that i take very dear to me. so far in my life i have not felt this way before. after all you have done you think that a sorry will cure everything. hate to say it but i just know you too well.. to know that when u are truly regret n sorry n when you are not. you may have been able to fool others but you cant fool me. n i dare to say tat our lifes will not be d same as before. from now on you are nothing to me as i am nothing to you all along. hate to see that this ties between us have to break but u are the one who force tis to happen.
as i will say now. you are imature and u will continue to get used no matter wat as u will not grow up. lies n cheated will keep coming to you and it will hurt my heart to keep witnessing it but i will stop my self from doing anything to prevent it. and dont come crying to me that time that your regretful for i have foreseen it to happen. as i love you too much i will let you to suffer. for now i will slowly turn this love i have for u away n once its gone. there is no return
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
Gang / Groups??
well, these few days have been as boring as usual as i have said in my previous post. only thing that keep me from full spider web mood is going out for a movie n football.. haha..
well, one problem tat is popping out of my head non stop.. which group/ gang do i belong to? or i dont belong to any at all.. after much serious thinking( which i should have been using it on studies. XP ) i have finally make it clear to my self tat hey.. i dont belong to any. this is why of all the loneliness that i felt.
come to think of it. the only time i got call out is when want cc or just need people to fill up the gap.. d rest i wont occur to any of ur heads.. well, its my problem i think which is why i am who i am now.. alone is not bad. gv me more time with my families as now its having major problem. it hurts me when i am not in anybody mind but it hurts me even more to know tat one of my family is going down.
i have to admit that i always talk straight out, but wat i always say is just tat so u wont get hurt. its pain in d heart when one u care for alot fell. be it for friends or family. i have already make my self to not care so much bout a fren i care alot but i dont wan to have to do d same to family.
i dont mind not being in any gang/group as long as i have family. but now.. i donno where am i heading. i went to kampar so tat u can have more money to spend on but to u i suka suka go kampar oni for no reason. to u i am juz a noisy fella who likes to nag alot and did alot of things tat did not think of u. but one thing for sure i'm not same like u. i put my family first no matter wat. so i can just wish n pray tat u will be ok and not fell too down. for wat you are doing now, once u fell, there wont be a family for u to turn to now.
well, one problem tat is popping out of my head non stop.. which group/ gang do i belong to? or i dont belong to any at all.. after much serious thinking( which i should have been using it on studies. XP ) i have finally make it clear to my self tat hey.. i dont belong to any. this is why of all the loneliness that i felt.
come to think of it. the only time i got call out is when want cc or just need people to fill up the gap.. d rest i wont occur to any of ur heads.. well, its my problem i think which is why i am who i am now.. alone is not bad. gv me more time with my families as now its having major problem. it hurts me when i am not in anybody mind but it hurts me even more to know tat one of my family is going down.
i have to admit that i always talk straight out, but wat i always say is just tat so u wont get hurt. its pain in d heart when one u care for alot fell. be it for friends or family. i have already make my self to not care so much bout a fren i care alot but i dont wan to have to do d same to family.
i dont mind not being in any gang/group as long as i have family. but now.. i donno where am i heading. i went to kampar so tat u can have more money to spend on but to u i suka suka go kampar oni for no reason. to u i am juz a noisy fella who likes to nag alot and did alot of things tat did not think of u. but one thing for sure i'm not same like u. i put my family first no matter wat. so i can just wish n pray tat u will be ok and not fell too down. for wat you are doing now, once u fell, there wont be a family for u to turn to now.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Life Back In Selangor
well.. i'm back in selangor on dec 3 last thursday to attend my sis first fashion show competition. can say that all of the contestant was good so even my sis dint win at least she wont feel so bad.
well, my aunt n 2 cousins got involve in an accident las sun. lucky no life was taken away so thank god for that. so now i am d official ahmad of the house.. so goes my study mood anytime d.. haha..
this few days with alot of time doing nothing make me start thinking of alot of things. well, d more i think d more i feel like a fool.. a fool tat is being use from time to time. but wat choices i have. i dont mind it happen wif my family but it usually happen wif "fren". its a tough choice. so many time i have wanted to cut all contacts n try to get new one who will appreciate me but it seems it wont happen. i will always only appear when they recall me.. if not like a wind i will be blown away.
life's tough. so as i have post earlier just live with it. one day i will sure stand above every single one of those jokers and prove to them tat i am no fool..
tat time dont expect me to be so nice to attend to u all when u decided that i was the most free person in d world.. now officially all of u are just my temporary frens till i manage to be only me alone. tat time i am sure to take u all as d wind tat juz blow by and wont care less.. thanks alot for some good memories bt i will work hard from now on to deny u all n slowly get u all of my brain contact frens list.
well, my aunt n 2 cousins got involve in an accident las sun. lucky no life was taken away so thank god for that. so now i am d official ahmad of the house.. so goes my study mood anytime d.. haha..
this few days with alot of time doing nothing make me start thinking of alot of things. well, d more i think d more i feel like a fool.. a fool tat is being use from time to time. but wat choices i have. i dont mind it happen wif my family but it usually happen wif "fren". its a tough choice. so many time i have wanted to cut all contacts n try to get new one who will appreciate me but it seems it wont happen. i will always only appear when they recall me.. if not like a wind i will be blown away.
life's tough. so as i have post earlier just live with it. one day i will sure stand above every single one of those jokers and prove to them tat i am no fool..
tat time dont expect me to be so nice to attend to u all when u decided that i was the most free person in d world.. now officially all of u are just my temporary frens till i manage to be only me alone. tat time i am sure to take u all as d wind tat juz blow by and wont care less.. thanks alot for some good memories bt i will work hard from now on to deny u all n slowly get u all of my brain contact frens list.
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