going d o.. las day!!!

haiz... so sad... after 3 days holiday 2morow gotto go bak penang d.. flying off 2morow o... willy enjoy tis short break from work.. willy need to refill bak my energy also... maybe is cause at penang i am bored outta my mind o.. i'm always alone.... wat could b worst than being alone n nothing else to do... but tis short break willy ENJOY o.. always late sleep n 1st day when out till 5 in d morning.. haha.. lucky din go clubbing so save alot on cost.... working in penang was fun actually.. as all d staff there was gd n friendly.. all of them r willing to teach or help u anytime... d guest there all also quite friendly... mainly long staying guest a... but oni not mouch young guest in tis hotel... oni thing not gd bout working in tis hotel is i always got left out by me so call "frens"... starting when all plan together cum here is willy gd.. everyway together.... but than as time goes by their will face appear... they say tat i always did not follow them but they din even ajak me to go also how would i knw.... but i should also thank them if not for tis i wont knw their true colour... n i feel so lucky tat i din cont to kao one of them a.. they r wat u call it as faker frens.. when they need u there will b there... when ur nothing they say bb... well tats life.... alwasy when i'm alone its gv me time to think bout my life so far.. cum to think of it i did alot of things tat i regret doing it... wish i could turn bak time to d past to fix d problems.... one case till now i juz cant willy get it off my mind so lucky tis blog no1 cum c so safe to express it than keeping it in me brain... tis is about my las gf... she was d one tat i willy luv n wont let go but because of my naiveness... i was force to part ways wif her... for alot of pp eyes they c as i hv lost interest in her... ingore her for sum time.. but non knw d real truth... no1 knws how much pain i gotto put in trying to protect her,... always hearing pp talking bad bout her n trying all sorts of ways to hurt her... most is my skool mates.. they hv a willy bad impression on her n keep taunting her non stop i front of me... which bf can stand their gf tat said all day long... naive as i am i thought tat ignoring her would not lead them to taunt her in front of d whole world... cant stand it juz hinking bout it.... alot of others things lead me to hv to pretend to ignore her but no point talking bout it also.... tried to move on after breaking up but juz cant get her off my head... feel glad tat she finally found another guy but tat bastard eventually leave her... than i decide to win her bak which i nearly did... but suddenly a thought of izit she willy like me or izit cause of past memory as she juz broke up oni.. am i taking advantage i donno... so i tried to test her abit... seldom contact her for a week... but she gv me a shock.. she cpl wif another guy n claim she luv him very much.. d fact of tis juz burns me away... juz a week ago we r so ahppy together now suddenly say tat tis guy is d one she always wan... is like she put a paybak to me n i gotto admit is willy gd... my heart was so hurt, angry n happy at d same time... cause i knw d will feelings she hv in her... now still cant willy get her off my mind but feel happy for her also as always because so far tis guy din treat her bad... or maybe i donno if he did... told me self tat no matter wat happen even if she forgotten bout me i will always try to b there for her... always will do my best to cheer her up n help her d best i can in anyway.... to those guys who dare hurt her curse u all " san chai nou si fat" ahha.... think should stop writing d a... getting too emo d... until i donno wat was i writting also.. hehe... Happy Valentine to all dcpls in d world a.. n to d singles u r not alone...